I guess things got a little busy, I got a little bit out of control but am slowly managing to get things back to how they were.  I’m not going to go into it all – I won’t bore you to tears!  But I’m still here, still trying to lose weight and still trying to keep my head above water in this game called life.

The biggest exciting news I have is that Q and I have bought a section of land!  Well not really a section – more like six acres!  Bring on the good life!  he he  It’s about ten minutes drive out of town and is so peaceful.  We plan to build on it within a year, so yesterday we were looking at show homes.  How excitement!  There are some lovely homes around.  So it’s all busy, busy.  So thats my project at the moment and I’d say it’s going to be quite a long term one and will know doubt have loads more to write about it!  Anyone been through the building process?  Any advice?

Work has been a bit quiet, but these next two weeks are going to be crazy busy.  We have auditors in the office for two weeks, add in monthly accounts, upcoming rates season and it’s all on!

 Weight is still going down.  I am happy enough with it, but know that I could still be making better choices.  Ah well it’s a work in progress.

 Right I have to dash, but wanted to do a post of some description.  Will be back soom with a lot more dribble!

I just don’t know where the days are going at the moment – busy busy!

I had a fantastic loss at fatclub on Friday – a whole 1.4 kilos!  Totally rapt with that!  It looks like my running is paying off.  I thought my exercise needed a bit of a shake up!.

This week is looking good too – here’s the plan

• Monday – 1 hr walk with Theo dog and hubby (evening)
• Tuesday – Run 6, Walk 12, Run 5 (lunchtime)
• Wednesday – Run 7, Walk 11, Run 6 (lunchtime), new gym program (evening)
• Thursday – Run 8, Walk 11, Run 7 (lunchtime), gym (evening)
• Friday – 1 hr walk (morning)
• Saturday – Run 10, Walk 10, Run 7 and maybe a gym workout
• Sunday – Day of Rest

I am loving the running program and am just so damn proud of myself!  I never thought that I would even get this far through the program – I really thought that I would have given up by now.  I impress myself!

We had a lovely weekend, Friday night was a quiet one, we went to my sisters for takeaways.  It was great to catch up with her and hang out.   Saturday I got up earlyish and started preparing for my dinner party!  Then off to netball where we had an outstanding loss to finish off the season.  Home again and more prep for the dinner party, along with a quick go over with the vaccuum.  On the menu was:

•  bagel crisps and sweet chilli philly, Q’s duck salami on crackers with avocado and relish
• Mum’s famous chicken pie with my roast vege salad served on mesculin leaves and fresh garlic rolls
• And to finish it all off Raspberry Crumble Cheesecake

Delicious!  I spose I should also mention the copious amounts of wine I consumed and the very scrummy vanilla vodka!  Oh and my nice headache the next morning!

Sunday saw the normal chores of getting groceries and visiting grandparents.  I also managed to grab a bargain at Spotlight with some more bead storage containers.  So I spent Sunday evening reorganising all of the guff, as Q wanted his fishing tackle boxes back!  Unfair!  he he  Oh and Charmaine I don’t normally sell my creations on trade me.  Usually just through friends and word of mouth.  I have also done a wedding which was quite exciting!

So this week not much planned apart from work and the exercise schedule.  We are thinking of going to the Blindspott concert that is on Thursday night, but we shall see.  I am very keen, but there doesn’t appear to many others that are. 

Hope all are well

Ciao Kel x

My exercise has been outstanding – even if I do say so myself (and I do!)  This was the week that I started my running program and it is going quite well.  Small steps!  Here is what my exercise week looks like:

• Monday – Run 2, Walk 15, Run 2 (lunchtime)
• Tuesday – Walk 1hr (morning), Gym 45 mins (evening)
• Wednesday – Run 3, Walk 15, Run 3 (lunchtime), Walk 1 hr (evening)
• Thursday – Run 5, Walk 14, Run 4 (lunchtime), Gym 45 mins (evening)
• Friday – Walk 1 hr (morning)
• Saturday – Netball game (40 mins) + warm up
• Sunday – Day Of Rest

I don’t think that I have put in an effort like that for a long time!

Unfortunately my eating has been a bit hit and miss.  I’m waiting on TOM to arrive and have been feeling the need to eat everything in sight that isn’t nailed down.  It is very frustrating and I have struggled with it for the last couple of weeks.  I have also had a couple of binges, which has set me back a little, but I am not giving up!  I don’t want to undo all my good work so far and am determined to keep lard busting!

Everything else in my world is just ticking along.  Pretty boring really.

Kel x

Take care of yourselves

Kel x

I am thinking of rejoining the gym.  I really loved it last time and even though I know that I get sick of things after a while I am just ensuring that I will sign up for a pay as you go type deal rather than a 12 month deal.  It works out much better for me that way.  Another plus is that one of the two gyms that I am looking at offers my workplace and excellent discount!  So I could end up paying only $6 a week, which I think is pretty damn reasonable!

Not much else has really been happening in my world, very boring actually.  Work is still pretty full on but not crazy, my family is all good, we had my sister and nephews for tea last night so that was really nice.  I even managed to get the younger one to eat his yams!  Nothing like a little bribery to get what you want!  Q is a big Simpsons fan so we are off to see the movie on Sunday – the boys are really looking forward to coming too.  I’m not really concerned, but the things you do for some popcorn!  he he

 I have had quite an emotional eating week and I am struggling to deal with that.  I have kept to step one though and written it all down – it’s not pretty reading, but it will all help to look back on.

Right off to read what you guys have been up to!

Kel x

• I have had a really bad ingrown toenail.  It’s disgusting and mostly my own fault.  I went to the doctor last night and he cut it!  It fucking hurt!  The infection was bad despite being on antibiotics for a few days, so the local didn’t numb it completely.  Q came with me to hold my hand.  I think I taught my very conservative doctor some new swear words!
• Instead of clearing up the infection as they were supposed to do, the antibiotics felt that they would be better served to give me thrush!  NICE!
• My ovaries are sore!  I have PCOS and endometriosis and every now and then they flare up and ache.  They are improving since I have seen a fabulous specialist in Christchurch, but still sore enough to affect my daily life
• I have a major poo problem.  It’s linked to the endo, I haven’t been for days.  Can anyone say uncomfortable?
• Add to all this the migraine and you can see why I am feeling sorry for myself!

But that’s enough of that.  I am looking forward to the positives.  Since my toe is now fixed I will be able to start exercising again and surprisingly enough I actually am really missing it.  I feel sluggish and I am sure a great walk with Theo dog would go a long way to blowing that feeling away.  Since having a sleep my migraine seems to have disappeared.  I will keep up with the drugs to ensure that it stays away and I can get some work done.  The ovaries are 100 times better than they were – I am so thankful for this!  And I spose the chemist sells canasten for a bloody reason!  Hmmph, don’t think I can find the positive in this! he he

The biggest positive is that as I left work and headed home my head was looking forward to planning a big binge, but we kept to the route home and didn’t go near the dairy or supermarket.  I had a couple of bread rolls for lunch and saw the chocolate in the cupboard.  I didn’t resist but treated myself to one row.  I had the control over the chocolate – do you know how good that feels.  Go me!

The overcoming binge eating book is going well – really interesting.  Yesterday I started step 1 and am writing down everything I eat, when I eat it, where I eat it and how I am feeling.  It will be interesting to observe a few weeks.  I haven’t tracked since I started WW again, just been keeping a rough total in my head, so it’s good to go back to basics.  I’m enjoying it – it’s the geeky accountant in me I guess.

I am enjoying reading some fresh new blogs – if you know of one, drop me a line!

Kel x

Apart from work last week I did very little, had netball practice on Wednesday night, my nephews to stay on Friday night and a day hanging out with my mum yesterday.  It was my 15th ‘birthday’ of me joining the family so we went out for lunch, a wander around the craft show that was on in Invercargill yesterday and just generally enjoyed each others company.  Last night I went to a friends place to enjoy a bottle of wine and nibbles while watching NZ beat Australia in the netball.  Very nice!  Although I do have a bit of a lingering headache today!  When will I learn?

I bought a new book yesterday – Overcoming Binge Eating and am so far very interested.  I will share more as I get into it.  It’s a very strong competition at the moment between reading that or the latest Harry Potter – hmmm decisions !! he he

I am reading a lot of blogs at the moment and today I found a new one – www.creating-wellness.blogspot.com what an amazing lady.  I love her outlook on life and her general happy vibe.  I hav been tempted a few times to watch the DVD of The Secret, now I think I definetly will!

Have a great week everybody

Kel x

 We had a really nice weekend, very low key but it was nice to just hang out.  I managed to catch up with a couple of friends, do some shopping, watch the latest Harry Potter and go for an hour long walk.  Also caught up with my sister and nephews.  So really a pretty productive weekend.  However I note that the housework doesn’t really get a mention, which means I will have to do some through out the week to keep on top of it all.

 My eating over the weekend wasn’t too bad, but I am a bit disappointed in today’s effort.  Really need to focus on making better choices.  I might start quickly tracking on here what I have eaten for the day, just to make me a wee bit more accountable.

I had an e-mail conversation with my dear friend Bec today – Hi Bec!  We were talking about how we label food good and bad foods.  I really think that is something that we shouldn’t get into the habit of.  Last year my 8 year old nephew was doing healthy food studies in school and he said something that really stuck with me and that I try to remember now.  He classed them as everyday foods and sometimes foods.  I think that this is a fantastic way to look at it.  No food is therefore forbidden, but we know that sometimes foods are just that – food that we enjoy occasionally but don’t make up part of out every day diet.  It has seemed to be quite helpful for me to look at it this way so I thought that I would share.

 I have a pretty busy week at work with the year end accounts having to be finished this week, but it will be good to get stuck in and get it finished.  Plus I like being busy, makes the day go faster.

Right, just about my bed time!

Kel x

I haven’t got anything exciting to say today but thought I would throw up a few photo’s and call it a post!  Besides I love seeing other people’s photo’s so think it’s only fair that I share some.  So here goes!

Right the page is throwing a hissy so it looks like that it for now!

Kel x

Last night we had book club which was great.  I love getting together with a bunch of girls and having a good gasbag.  We had a yummy pot luck tea, the lemon meringue pie turned out really well and we even managed to exchange a few books!  I tidied up after they left, tried to watch the netball match between NZ and Jamaica, but I was just too weary and had to go and hop into bed. 

Today I have been to weigh in and gained 200 grams.  But I am not concerned.  It’s that time of the month, I haven’t exercised due to my damn toe and I overindulged in wine and dessert last night.  I know they sound like excuses, and they are, but they are my excuses and I am sticking to them!  He he  I know that I can have a good loss this week as long as I pull the control back.  I have allowed myself too many treats this week – almost daily and that is not something I want to get into the habit of.   

The weekend is pretty busy, but hopefully I will get a chance to have some down time.  I have big lists planned out of all that I would like to get done around the house.  I feel in the mood to purge a lot of junk and get some order back into my life.  I always feel a lot better and calmer when my space is organised.  So that is the main focus this weekend, other than that I am catching up with a friend on Saturday that I haven’t spent a lot of time with lately and I have been feeling bad about it, but tomorrow should be good.  Sunday is very exciting as we are off to see Harry Potter!  Well a couple of friends and my nephews are – Q won’t go with me !!  Party pooper! 

I have ordered a new book on intuitive eating.  The whole intuitive eating theory is definitely helping me to conquer my food addiction and minimise my binge eating.  I still struggle but the changes over the last few months have been so big and it’s so rewarding.  My relationship with food has always been rocky.  Through counselling and my own reading I believe that it stems from a number of things.

 - I was an only child until I was seven.  I was quite spoilt with ‘things’ eg food and toys, but can’t really remember feeling loved. 

- When I was seven my birth mother met Him.  He was emotionally and physically abusive to us both and also to the two children that they had together.  We were never rich but when He came along we were dirt poor, there was often no food in the cupboards as they had drunk and smoked it away each dole day.  I developed a very bad habit of eating as much as I could when I could, cos I wasn’t always sure when the next meal would arrive.   

- When I was 13 I ran away from home and was fostered out to the BEST family in the world!  I was well provided for and had everything I needed, but for almost seven years I ate erratically and the habit was very hard to break.

 - I think it really hit me most when hubby and I first moved in together.  As I was sneaking food behind his back, I realised that it was silly.  I paid my share for the food; I had money in my pocket that could buy me any meal I wanted.  Why was I still hoarding and binging?I still don’t have all the answers and I still revert back into my ‘old self’ but overall the improvement is great and I am enjoying food for much better reasons and listening to my body and what it needs. 

It sure is an interesting journey!  I’m glad some of you have joined me.  I really am enjoying writing again.

Kel x